This past year has yielded a record for the number of times my mind has been blown, by astronomy, quantum physics, and these spirits that are in my apartment. I used to think how amazing it was that my treatment through energy provided me with some proof about what all of us are.. Especially since I had been searching and searching and didn't think I'd ever find any answers. But, now my awareness has grown so much more. You eventually find what you search for. All of the above things have worked together to give me more of the bigger picture, which I am in complete awe of. It's beyond words. This latest event (I am referring to the spirits of course) is the most significant event in my life.

I knew that I had a great great great, etc. uncle that signed the Declaration of Independence (Thomas McKean), but up until now, that's all I knew. I never looked into it. He was much more important than I and my immediate family were aware of. It turns out that one of his positions was as a military captain, from Delaware. I mentioned before that my apartment is on the battlefield of Guilford Courthouse. Well, it appeared that my apartment is located near the 3rd line, which is the guys from Delaware. I am not completely sure because when I looked at another map, it appeared to be around the 2nd line. My ability to judge direction and distance is somewhat lacking and the accuracy of the maps probably are as well. In any case, freaky, isn't it? My uncle wasn't at this battle. I found a letter from Greene to him talking about the battle.

Yeah, everything happens for a reason... Everything..

I wish I had been able to clearly hear everything when one of the spirits was talking to me. All I got from it was "you are right" in response to one of my attempts to get them all to leave. But, the other words were a bit of a blur. Other than that, only yelling and their movements has reached my ears.

There is much more to all this, but um not everybody has an open mind and I am somewhat reluctant to spill it all. I can talk openly about these things with my friend in FL, but I wish I had more people to discuss my ideas and conclusions and the events that led to them with.

Now, regarding astronomy, I have an educated feeling (felt that I needed to qualify that ) that the universe is sitting in something. Time and space matters only in the physical universe. Time and space does not matter in quantum physics. I think dark matter, which some speculate to be an unknown subatomic particle (I lean towards this explanation, how could we simply not see 90% of regular matter?), is not local to this universe, but is what flows through absolutely everything, holding it together. I do believe in multi-verses because an infinite universe does not make any sense. I don't understand how an infinite universe could expand. I have some quantum physics fueled reasons for my belief in multi-verses as well.

Maybe sometime, I will write more in depth. I also wish that I could devote more time and energy to all of this! The more I learn, the more questions I have. I am honestly thinking of going back to school, and changing my major to physics, concentrating on quantum physics as much as possible. What a change from when I was young and bored with science. In school, they presented science as fact, and my brain needs theory. My high school physics teacher had asked me about going into science and I laughed and told him that I wanted to go into art. Hahaha. Maybe I should look him up when I graduate...

My mind needs to be blown more. I love it.